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Dr. Deborah Hall's avatar

I am a psychoanalytic warrior.

Uninterested in a nice, easy middle-ground life.

I have spent my life doing battle.

Strategically defeating the internal enemy

(the sadistic part of the mind--my own and others'.)

We analysts call it the sadistic superego.

It lies to the ego and goads it

into self destructive activities and paths

that ruin life and love.

I am an ally of the Navy Seal.

We both use mental strength

to strategically defeat enemy forces.

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Dr. Deborah Hall's avatar

Another dimension you and I share, Sam,

is we both know how to endure.

There is no way I could have endured what you have,

in combat and its aftereffects.

And the autoimmune battle is terrible.

But I have endured and survived many traumas and losses.

And, like you, I remain fresh and keen for the fight.

I am an international endurance athlete (Duathlon)

currently ranked 7th in America in my age group.

Was recently named to Team USA representing America

at the World Championships in Australia in August.

I will race two events:

Standard Duathlon (run 10km, bike 40km, run 5km)

Sprint Duathlon (run 5km, bike 20km, run 2.5km)

It has been a joy to meet you

and to begin to get to know you, Sam,

and I look forward to learning from you.

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Sam Alaimo's avatar

Thank you Dr. Hall. Likewise, it's been a pleasure to read your work.

Every battle is different no matter what it is called or how many people know about it. All that matters, I think, is how well be bear it, how much we sit on it, and write about it, and use it to become better humans.

Duathlon's are great events - I'm very excited for your upcoming races and that you're representing the USA.

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Dr. Deborah Hall's avatar

Thank you, Sam, for your insights about battle.

Being a loner, hardly anyone ever knew

there WERE any battles :)

Like you, I channel my whole life

into building myself and others into better human beings.

Thank you for being excited about my races!

I am deeply honored to race for my country.

My hero is my grandfather, Colonel Theodore Hall (Army),

who held the record for the mile at Western Reserve University

for years after he graduated.

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Sam Alaimo's avatar

Thank you for sharing, and to your grandfather as well. He probably had some incredible stories.

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Dr. Deborah Hall's avatar

He surely did!

Here's how I look at pain at this point

in my journey--

As a psychoanalyst I provide insight with which the individual

can prevent the pain of unnecessary and tragic self damage.

However, there are other kinds of pain

which cannot or should not be avoided.

These are necessary in order to live an honorable life,

and are to be endured with stoic courage.

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Sam Alaimo's avatar

Yes! For my part, I believe much of the happiness we were designed to get out of life is due to responding to pain in its various forms: physical, psychological, emotional, spiritual, etc.

This is a worthy battle.

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